Friday, January 25, 2008

Separation Anxiety

I didn't want to write an entry tonight, but I needed an outlet.

My heart bleeds these days because of certain changes.

Three days ago, in an unexpected move, I was stunned by an announcement.

I put on a mask and pretended that I was far from being affected. I'm not sure if I was successful, but I tried to be as cerebral as possible. No tinge of emotion should betray the real me. I saw the announcement as a joke. I played with it. But I knew that I was on denial.

I'm sad. No.

It's an understatement.

I am devastated.

This feeling I met some months ago when I had to detach myself from individuals who have been part of my life.

I was not ready to welcome such feeling again.